NatsuxReader: I Found You Chapter 21

"(Y/n)! Wake up! Wake up dammit!"

You wake up with Natsu's face right in front of you. You blink and feel your eyes all watery. "H-Huh? Natsu? What are you doing in here?", your voice is a bit hoarse from screaming and not talking to anyone in an entire week.

HIs brown eyes narrow a bit. You couldn't tell what his emotion is at the moment. Is he angry? Sad? Confused? What?

"N-Nat-"

"Are you ok?", he asks, interrupting you. "Actually, no.. Forget I said that. You're not. I know you're not. But why..? Why are you like this? Why so all of a sudden (y/n)?" Natsu's brown eyes stare at you intensely. His face is very close to yours.

You just stare at Natsu. You contemplate whether you should lie to him or not.. Perhaps it's best to lie a bit about it. There really isn't any other option is there? Or perhaps you should just stay quiet.. Perhaps you shouldn't say anything at all.. And so you do..

Natsu waits for a few minutes for you to answer. However, you continue your silence. Soon, he becomes impatient and softly shakes you. "Answer me (y/n)! Please! I can't take it! I can't take it anymore! I can't! It hurts! It hurts so much for not seeing you... Hearing you... Anything... So please..." He soon stops shaking you and leans his forehead against your shoulder. His entire body shakes. Tears fall rapidly down his face. "Please... Everyone misses you.. I miss you.. Things just feel so empty right now.. And I don't know why.. I'm scared.. Terrified.. Petrified.. So please.. Please answer me.."

You bite the button of your lip, looking to the side of you. "I... I'm scared Natsu.. I'm scared that I'll lose you... Lose Fairy Tail... Everything here.. That... I'll somehow have to leave.." You slowly pull away from Natsu. You grab Natsu's shoulders so that you can look at him. Your eyes observe his emotions.

Natsu blinks, looking down before looking back up at you. A determined look is on his face. "You're not leaving. You're not going to lose me nor Fairy Tail. I'll make sure of that. There will be nothing that will stop me from doing that. Now, you already promised me that you won't let that happen either. No matter what it is.. The both of us will make sure of that.."

His arms wrap around you tightly. "Don't cry. Please. Don't hide yourself anymore. I've been so worried about you.. Everyone has.. It's been so hard to eat and sleep and stuff since you've been hiding. No more of that. I'm tired of that. So come out."

You bury your face into his shoulder, nodding. "Alright.." A sad smile forms on your lips then you chuckle. "Wow.. I'm such an idiot aren't I Natsu?"

Natsu moves his head so that he can see a bit of your face. His head shakes and he smiles. "No. You're not. Not at all."

"But I am though.. I'm a really big idiot.. I want to stay in Fairy Tail.. Stay with all of you.. And yet here I am. Staying in this room. Who does that? Clearly an idiot like me. Only an idiot like me would do that. I should've gone into the guild hall. Instead, I have been rotting here in this room." You stop talking, waiting for Natsu to say something. However, Natsu doesn't say anything because he doesn't know what to say. So, your mouth opens once more, "I'm sorry.. You don't deserve this. None of you do. I'm sorry for causing so much pain. I'm just scared.. Terrified... Of losing more things I love. I hate it.. I hate it so much.." (E/c) eyes close tightly to try to stop the tears that threaten to fall as teeth bite the bottom lip. You lean your forehead against Natsu's chest so that he doesn't see your face.

The salamander's chest tightens. For some reason, his heart hurt and he has no idea why. Why does it hurt? Why is his heart beating so loudly? Every time he would smell the saltiness of your tears, his heart hurt worse and worse. It gets harder and harder for him to breathe. He himself wants to cry along with you. He doesn't want to see or hear you in pain. He doesn't want to let you go. He wants you by his side forever. However, Natsu has no idea why.

Natsu's teeth grit together. He wants to yell.. Scream.. Be loud so that you can understand that nothing that you're fearing will ever happen. However, he somehow talks in a soft voice, "It won't ever happen. How many times do I have to tell you? None of us will ever let this happen. I will never let this happen." One of his fingers go under your chin and lifts your head up so that you can look at him. There's a soft smile on his face. "Please. Please believe me."

Your eyes widen again. The last person who said those words was[1]... Those words were... Lies. You could see that person in place of Natsu. With almost the same look as his. But yet different at the same time. Your eyes blink twice to go back to reality. That person isn't here this time. No.. This time it's Natsu. Maybe things will be different. Maybe there really will be a way to stop you from going back. Maybe you should just trust Natsu's promise. Believe that he won't betray you.. Like... Like....

"I believe you.."

Natsu smiles wider. "Good! Now, we should go back to the guild! Everyone misses you. They've all been wondering when you would come back. Let's not have them wait any longer shall we?"

You nod in agreement. He grabs your hands and practically drags you to the Fairy Tail guild hall. You laugh at his eagerness. "Slow down Natsu!"

He looks back at you and shakes his head, "No way! We need to get there as fast as we can! Everyone will see your smiling face faster!"

You laugh louder at what Natsu says. "Alright!"

For now, the fear of leaving.. Losing has gone for now.. Maybe that fear will go away forever. Maybe not. The fear of your past will continue to haunt you. The fear of what that person did. Perhaps that fear will go away as well. With the fire dragon slayer's help, it may eventually go away. But for now, there will be joy and laughter. For you.. and the fire dragon slayer..